Silence in words

I stop making efforts,
I stop using words to explain,
I believe you cannot make people understand what you feeling.
At some point, you need to move regardless they have done so much for you.
I know you might be feeling selfish if you say you don’t want to sail in the same boat,
You don’t want to love them,
You don’t want to be there lifetime,
And how can you tell them?
You try to detach but how can you forget the amount of pressure of loving they putting on you.
I think I don’t want to be loved by anyone this time except myself,
I think I don’t want to be touched by the right human,
I think I don’t want to be live little less or happy where questions are more and answers mean nothing.
I wish I could live, all alone, by myself, without worrying about anyone else except the one with whom I want to be
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Self Trip

On a trip to heal you,

I damage a part of me,

No, you have not done anything

But the shine on a smile is lost,

Innocence on a face is faded

And faith in loyalty has been shattered.

I don’t love those winter mornings might be the weakness of mine has been discovered by these mild winds.

I deepened myself in no search of light,

I am not lost but each day with you I am losing myself.

I am so tired with a thought that you will leave me,

I am not sad ’cause you were not loyal to me,

But you never loved me,

I am still waiting for all the dreams to come true which you showed to me,

But Inside more than my brain, my heart knows,

it’s time for me before you,

And I think it has to be always me before anyone, now