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Mentally-half break/down

The separate white envelope,

The green quoted lines ,

The red doted spots ,

She noticed it all ..

Except the lies of hidden shirt .

I put everything to the place,

To ignore the scene I created years ago,

This time I was serious,

She noticed it all..

Except the mask of my past.

Serious was just a declaration,

I belong the whole of me into her ,

I pull up the blanket and hide the darkness into it,

she noticed it all..

Except the cage of my freedom

And spirit of her ignorance

~nidarnotesnowadays

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Finding Positivity

Running from the situations,
Hiding all the emotions,
I realise there is no station for me to stop,
so I discontinue with the same train and thought to continue on a new road.
The climbing was done,
The searching was completed,
The houses created ,
But I had no spirit to live into it.
So again I discontinue with dream I had and started something new,
This time with less courage and more fear,

I opted a choice of not giving myself whole to someone and to be away from all the weaknesses,

I might discontinue with lot of things but I always have a will to continue with something new.
Leaving all my odds behind,
All my struggles at smile,
And all my love for myself,
I start living and loving again for me and for the person hiding inside me.

~Nidarnotesnowadays

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Quitter

Have you been lost ?

Yes

Have you ever hide?

Yes

Have you ever tried escapism?

Yes

And have you ever failed?

Of course .

Can I call you a quitter ?

What .. No !!

We can be a failure but quitter is what we are not .

Why quitting is hard ?

Why we are ok with the losing but not quitting ?

Quitting is Dangerous, Devastated and Destroying force

We donot want to quit things ,

We cannot believe we are quitters ,

Even we wasted half of our lives thinking : QUITTING IS WEAK AND LOSING IS A PHASE

And we are wrong but that’s ok human race is a complete mess !

what I discovered is

  • Quitting is just a beginning of something ‘I’ want to do .
  • Quitting is different from losing .
  • Quitting allow you to choose the real – YOU .
  • Quitting is tuff but better than being lost .
  • Quitting might be a self guilt but a step towards being happy and satisfied.

Let’s get easy on us and quit things which we want to.

You can quit anything in between that might be an unending project, a relationship or studies or job and continue with what you want ,what you really craving for.

Losing is great but quitting is awesome too.

It’s ok to be a quitter!

~nidarnotesnowadays

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Gravity

Have you ever been in love?
No
Have you ever experienced the butterflies in your stomach?
Yes
Then how can you not be in love ?
You never said anything to me ,that’s why.
The little spark,
The great joy,
The shy smiles ,
The tight lips night,
The cold chest ,
The unbuttoned top,
The messed hair
without making any noise.
He pulled me closer after every six months ,
No , not he forgotten me but busy with his city.
I chose to be his mate from Year to Years,
He drove me crazy after every season break,
The river was deep may be that’s why I fall for him,
The ocean break,
The little fish got scared ,
I opened my door and swim so hard ,
I saw him struggling for his breath ,
I again go deep to pull him harder,
I saw nothing in the ocean of dark lantern.
The six months are over and I saw no homecoming ,
The ocean is silent but I can feel the heaviest gravity in it!
~nidarnotesnowadays

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Unquestioned question

Being spiritual and follow spiritualism are two different things. Many times we will question our existence and many times we question the existence of something which we have never seen but

some has felt this inside their soul,

some has felt this inside their beliefs

and this made me to question the existence of unseen objects like the

Existence of air,

Existence of smell,

Similarly, Existence of God.

while reading the theories and turning the pages of being spiritual ,atheist and agnostic I inspired by the people with strong belief and completely forgotten in the Ras(devotion/beauty) of God .

The chants,the mantras, the artees ,the dance I have seen people crying and sometime I too felt the same like there is a strong energy giving me power ,attracting me towards it like the magnetic force. I believe in universe, I believe in stars, believe in moon,sun ,earth and i believe in positivity and may be the believers of God or the believers of Atheism believe in one thing that is the existence of self in purest form.

Purest form ,

What is this purest form? What is this self? What is this existence? Is this all inside our body or reside in the universe ? Do we exist? Is this our natural form? Who are we ?

Hopefully, we will discuss all this while sharing our thoughts together .

Sloka :

TRUTH ALONE SHALL PREVAIL

सत्यमेव जयते नानृतं सत्येन पन्था विततो देवयानः येनाक्रमन्त्यृषयो ह्याप्तकामा यत्र तत् सत्यस्य परमं निधानम्

satyameva jayate nānṛtaṁ satyena panthā vitato devayānaḥ yenākramantyṛṣayo hyāptakāmā yatra tat satyasya paramaṁ nidhānam

My interpretation :

Truth is the only living thing and have no place for falsity.

With being truthful we can achieve the devine path, the ultimate path and this can be achieved to those whose desires have been fulfilled.This will reach out only by being Truth/Truthful

Importance – This beautiful mantra is from the Mundaka Upanishad (mantra 3.1.6), written more than 2500 years ago.

Sloka and importance taken from :
Greenmesg.org

~nidarnotesnowadays

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Get the old touch

Sometime some people break your heart and sometimes you break your heart by giving your whole life to them …

lies might be bigger ,

Changes may occur,

But they forget your life is revolving around them,

And they might be busy with their new and successful journey,

But it’s high time to get you a reality check.

That you always being loved by them,

Always been prioritised,

Always pampered,

Always the first human to be with ,

But your evolvement now need a break ,

No it’s not over but all it need a break,

And you need to know your worth.

May be you forget while giving them your love that you need to love yourself first ,

You need to respect your emotions first ,

You need not to be available for them all the time ,

It’s time to give yourself some time and more love ,

To get in touch with old love ,life and you !

~nidarnotesnowadays

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I heard you focusing on yourself

I heard you focusing on yourself,

Focusing on your success,

Loving yourself

And knows your worth

I know the new love is coming my way ,

I know the new success is around the corner,

I know the new people surrounding everywhere

But I still love myself more and I think that’s the only think keep me working harder,

Whatever I Learn , I learn for myself,

Doesn’t matter how much time it consuming but I still learn it,

I might not be running longer but I am trying to run where ever roads are taking me ,

Failures happened,

Silences brought,

Landed with empty heart ,

But I know from where to make a start.

I might not thank the universe daily ,

I know that everything will fall into the better places may be later but surely

And with each phase whether I am broken or not,

succeeding or not,

dreaming or not,

failing or not ,

I always love myself more than everybody else .

That’s where I stand now ,

And waiting for NO one to hold me back!

And we all have to feel about this once in a while or may daily

~nidarnotesnowadays

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Follow your eyes ,

It is okay for a moment to be lost and follow what your eyes want , not your heart

Yes, just for once follow,

Follow the unpainted  walls ,

Follow the crowd with noise, 

Follow the rains,

Follow the birds,

Follow the roads, 

If it is hard to follow then switch the directions ,

And then follow what your eyes are following ,

For a moment just lost with all NO’S  ,

For a moment think what you can’t do ,

For a moment let yourself go ,

Go from situations you can’t handle,

Go from the days you can’t make it better,

Go from the years where you decided to be married with your partner,

Go from the memories of past lover,

Go from the assault of last job,

And if you can’t go just run then, 

Run from the time,

Run from the people you belong to,

Run from the surroundings, 

Run from all the rights,

Run from all the achievements, 

Run from the best salary ,

And if you can’t run then don’t settle,

Don’t settle for anything less,

Don’t settle for anything just good,

Don’t settle to one city or country,

Don’t settle with one degree,

Don’t settle for others ,

And if you don’t settle then for once 

          follow your eyes

~nidarnotesnowadays